I live in a post-soviet block of flats which is surrounded by the jungle of the same, like mine, blocks of flats. There are endless fields of those in my neighbourhood.
Last night I had a dream. Near my block of flats on the empty space where grass was growing appeared one flat taken out from the block, at least it looked like that. I entered this flat and met there a guy who might be known to you as AL. AL was sitting there behing the plain wooden table and he was looking at me without any emotion. All AL said in my dream was:
- Your life is an illusion. A meaningless illusion. You can go now. Oh, and by the way, there is nothing you can do. All is said and done.
I didn't understand him. I tried to open the window in this flat and it appeared that its been made of carton. It was so light.
Later I came back home. I talked with my girlfriend, we even had a little argument, I played with my son. The next day I came to work. I talked with people.
But I still couldn't stop asking myself the same question: What's wrong with me? What's wrong with my life? Suddenly I realized I was dead. Simply dead. And all those interactions were only dreaming of the dead. Nobody even saw me nor heard me.
And I woke up.
hey, I know that guy! from your dream :)
ReplyDeleteI was pretty confused but Bardo Thodol brought some relief
ReplyDeleteGlad you woke up finally
ReplyDeleteSo, what did you learned from Bardo Thödol ?
ReplyDeleteI didn't tell that I've learned anything, it just brought me a relief.
ReplyDeleteIn my opinion, first of all, Bardo Thodol is not for alive caucasians. It also might be criticised for domestication of death but the whole human culture could be criticised for that, don't you think?
I think some sentences from The Tibetan Book of the Dead are worth remembering:
"When you die, you never die alone, because everybody dies"
and...
"Your life is an illusion, but you shall seek the truth, and you shall expand your true compasion to all the beings that suffer"
I think you shall do your best when you're alive. Do more, better.
ReplyDeleteWhat we do in life echoes in eternity.
ReplyDeleteReason why.
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